as the darkness fell ... the silence screamed

as she walked through the maze of her memories , 

she realized what she had lost .....

                       she realized what she could not find , 

she searched in vain for that one piece in the puzzle, 

the puzzle that was her mind ..... 

                      the journey that was her life , 

she realized the truth behind the silence , 

behind the pain.... 

as she moved further on .... 

she saw life's pitiful gaze .....

the depth of the mountains and the shallowness of the seas , 

the ever blinding madness in her pleas ... 

what could be and what was not , 

the crimson wave that was her soul ...

the crashing waves of her madness , 

the dancing gaze of her lover ...

the consummate lies of the saint , 

the beautiful truths of the sinner....

the shackles of her life, 

the freedom in her desires.... 

the paradoxes in her existence ,

and the never ending persistence....